Monday, January 26, 2009


I've been searching on the Internet for my late husband's children. I never had a chance to see or speak to his youngest son after he died. I heard through the grapevine that Peter was looking for his dad about a year after Roger's death. He went into an Alano Club and some jerk yelled out that Roger was dead. He turned and hurried away. For years, I have searched and found nothing. Today I found his name, his brother and sister's names and their mom's name. Apparently all living, but the phone numbers are all bad. I passed the information on to my daughter and she will continue.

While talking with Heather, she tells me that there is a big problem. A boy that Andrea rides the bus with and likes committed suicide over the weekend. Actually 2 boys from the same school shot themselves. Heather hasn't seen Andrea as she spent the weekend with a friend to go to the winter formal dance. The school called to advise parents this morning. My poor baby daughter! After all the changes in her life over the last couple of years, this seems just too much. I'm thinking about the boys' parents as well. How will they cope? Why? Please, friends pray for the families, friends, schoolmates - my Andrea - of these two boys. This is too much trauma for a small high school in a mountain town.

I had a post ready a few days ago, but everything kept messing up. I decided to let the whole thing go. So I'm back for another opportunity. I've been reading some of your posts, trying to catch up. There are so many people struggling physically, emotionally and financially. I'm one of those people who would like to run out to fix it. Fortunately I've learned that my answer is often not yours. So I pray. I pray for your health, your relationships, your finances. Then I pray for you to be surrounded by the love of Jesus Christ. I have your names written down - my memory's not that good! - so that I will remember your needs. I feel full of joy after I have prayed.

On my other blog, I will be posting about relationships ~ probably sometime today.

Tina came by on Thursday. She called early to ask if she could do laundry. When you live on the streets in a motorhome, there just isn't any way to get it done. I couldn't give her any work that day. It's the end of the month for us. So we spent most of the day together. I encouraged her to sign up to work for the pre-census. It's part-time and good pay. Then when the census actually starts, she will have a leg up. I hope she's in there taking the test today. We went out for a little bit to take pictures from a hill looking at the ocean. It was gray and overcast, but beautiful. I've added a small slide show for you.

It's dull and cloudy outside today and quite cool. In the area I lived when I was younger, about 50 east of here, hail stuck to the ground and housetops this morning. Brrrrrr! I left the heater on for the first time in a long while last night. We're hoping to get rain over the next couple of days. Strange to be at the ocean still having desert weather . . .

I hope your day is truly blessed. I keep you in my prayers.


Donna said...

Did you check on zabasearch looking for those people?

sober white women said...

I do hope that everything works out with you finding his children. I wish I could offer you advise on locating them, but I can't help you in that department. Sorry.
It is very cloudy and overcast here today. BRRRR

ADB said...

That is a sad and difficult task for you, Penny. I hope you manage to reestablish contact with those you are looking for.

Joyce said...

I hope you are able to find those that you are looking for. Maybe your daughter will have some luck. So sad about the suicides. I will never understand why someone would do that. During my daughter's first year of high school she said to me "Mom I need a new funeral outfit". It made me so sad. There were 11 children who died that year between the ages of 12 and 20. This is a small town so that is huge. Two were suicides. My prayers are with everyone who is touched by this tragedy. I understand how hard it is, especially on kids.
Hugs, Joyce

Celeste said...

So saed when someone takes their own life...even sadder when they have their whole life ahead of them.

Kathy said...

Hello Penny.
Sorry I haven't been around. But you have been in my thoughts and prayers.
Have you checked some of those ancestry sites? Some will let you post for free if you are trying to look for links in your family tree. Maybe one of the children you are looking for has posted there?

natalie said...

Dear Penny,
I;m so sorry for your loss and that of your dear daughter. Will pray for the family. teenagers are so delicate and My daughter went through a death of a friend in hi9gh school very difficult

Lisa said...

Loved your entry Penny... always good to stop by and visit you. So sorry to hear about the two boys. How is Andrea doing? Hope you can find the phone numbers for your family. Thank you for keeping my family in your prayers too for many of our needs.